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“I am Yahweh your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.                “You shall have no other gods before me.                “You shall not make for yourselves an idol, nor any image of anything that is in the heavens above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth: you shall not bow yourself down to them, nor serve them, for I, Yahweh your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children, on the third and on the fourth generation of those who hate me, and showing loving kindness to thousands of those who love me and keep my commandments.                “You shall not take the name of Yahweh your God in vain, for Yahweh will not hold him guiltless who takes his name in vain.                “Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. You shall labor six days, and do all your work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath to Yahweh your God. You shall not do any work in it, you, nor your son, nor your daughter, your male servant, nor your female servant, nor your livestock, nor your stranger who is within your gates; for in six days Yahweh made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that is in them, and rested the seventh day; therefore Yahweh blessed the Sabbath day, and made it holy.                “Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land which Yahweh your God gives you.                “You shall not murder.                “You shall not commit adultery.                “You shall not steal.                “You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.                “You shall not covet your neighbor’s house. You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything that is your neighbor’s.”
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I began masturbating in my second year of high school. The last time I did it was two months ago. So the habit lasted — I believe it will not recur again — for 6 years. I wish here to share my experience, since I am convinced that I have found a way of curing this and other addictions: GOD AND ONLY GOD.

 

Forget about will power. Forget about marriage being the answer; the only thing you are going to change is your manner of sinning, this time using your spouse.
I understand your grief. So many attempts at breaking your addiction, and all to no purpose! I’ve been through it. You have to believe there is a way out. It is not as hard as it seems. Only you must believe not in yourself, but in God alone.
I tried to kick the habit a dozen times or so. Finally, it hit me that I had lost control, that it was not I who was deciding whether or when to do it. However, realizing that I was dealing with an addiction, did not provide the breakthrough or turning point. My earlier, failed attempts at bucking the habit went more or less like this: first, confessing my sin (albeit very superficially) to a priest in the Sacrament of Reconciliation; then going to Holy Communion. That was it. After that, I would succumb again — because of television, internet, erotic pictures, and so on. I would fall into a kind of “trance”.
It is painful thinking of those times. All those wasted days and nights! Such was my “gratitude” to God for the graces He had lavished on me. This situation continued for 6 years. Always I was conscious of my impotence and weakness. A lingering sadness and a mild depression accompanied each fall.
How did I put an end to it? Once again, it started with the Sacrament of Reconciliation, but this time things were different. This was a real, heartfelt confession, in which I not only admitted my sin, but also told God that I had a real problem, that I was unable to solve it, that I feared for my future, that I had given up hope. My tears flowed freely.
I believe it was during this confession that the breakthrough took place. I am convinced that it was precisely then that God spoke to me through His mouthpiece, the priest. He looked at me, leaned over, and consoled me. He restored my hope. He drew me to His bosom as one does a small child. But the priest was important as well. In fact, it was this very priest whom I chose to be my spiritual director.
After that landmark confession, it seemed to me that my problems were over. But a few days later, sitting in front of the television, I gave in to temptation once again. The viewer’s discretion notice appeared at the start of a movie, and before long I was watching erotic scenes. God was with me. Turn off the TV and leave the room — I heard Him say. But I tuned Him out, and would not listen to His voice. The lure of sinful pleasure was stronger. I fell. In a single second, I put our recent reconciliation out of my mind.
I know that if today, even after two months of successfully persevering in chastity, I were to sit down at night in front of the television, I would succumb again. Once again, I would be lost to the world and estranged from God. That is why I no longer watch television at night. In fact, I seldom watch it at all. I have no time for it. However, I do have time for prayer. I start my day with God. I carry a rosary with me, and recite it frequently. I pray it when traveling on the bus, or when waiting at the bus stop. At 3:00 p.m. I recite the chaplet of divine mercy. Always I try to end the day by reciting the whole rosary. And even though I am not always able to focus on the mysteries, I at least try, and pray on. Why? Because I feel the power of this prayer! Because thanks to this prayer, I know, for instance, when to turn off the TV, and when to leave the room. Thanks to this prayer, the temptations are growing weaker, and I am starting to walk in the ways of God. I pay visits to the college chapel, something I was always afraid of doing
It is beautiful to be free. Of course, I have other problems as well, even worse than before, but that is because I am better able to notice them. I must continue to be alert and careful in avoiding the occasions of sin. I have to practice custody of the eyes, and know when to look away. I have to exercise prudence in what I read and the company I associate with. I know that if I avail myself of the Sacraments, pray daily, and attend weekday Mass, then with God’s help, I will withstand the temptation. I wish this for everyone.
Perhaps someone will find my witness helpful. To him or her, I would say by way of summary, pray, take advantage of the Holy Sacraments, and if you do not already belong to some prayer group or other, then join one. It helps. Here, then, is the antidote to your addictions and daily problems. Remember: God is always at your side. All you have to do is invite Him into your heart!
 
Michael, aged 20
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The above article was published with permission from Miłujcie się! in November 2010


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