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You have heard that it was said, 'You shall not commit adultery;'                but I tell you that everyone who gazes at a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart.                If your right eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out and throw it away from you. For it is more profitable for you that one of your members should perish, than for your whole body to be cast into Gehenna.                If your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off, and throw it away from you. For it is more profitable for you that one of your members should perish, than for your whole body to be cast into Gehenna.                'It was also said, 'Whoever shall put away his wife, let him give her a writing of divorce,'                but I tell you that whoever puts away his wife, except for the cause of sexual immorality, makes her an adulteress; and whoever marries her when she is put away commits adultery.                'Again you have heard that it was said to them of old time, 'You shall not make false vows, but shall perform to the Lord your vows,'                but I tell you, don't swear at all: neither by heaven, for it is the throne of God;                nor by the earth, for it is the footstool of his feet; nor by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the great King.                Neither shall you swear by your head, for you can't make one hair white or black.                But let your 'Yes' be 'Yes' and your 'No' be 'No.' Whatever is more than these is of the evil one.                'You have heard that it was said, 'An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.'*                But I tell you, don't resist him who is evil; but whoever strikes you on your right cheek, turn to him the other also.                If anyone sues you to take away your coat, let him have your cloak also.                Whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two.                Give to him who asks you, and don't turn away him who desires to borrow from you.                'You have heard that it was said, 'You shall love your neighbor,* and hate your enemy.*'                But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you,                that you may be children of your Father who is in heaven.               
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One day Jesus went into the house of a Pharisee, and there was a woman there who led a sinful life in the city. She began to wash His feet with her tears, and in His great mercy the Lord forgave her sins.

In a very similar way Christ came to me. My problem was impurity — specifically, self-abuse.


It all began quite unconsciously in my childhood. I was punished with excessive severity. My father was not above using the belt. I never confessed this sin at my First Confession.
This nightmare came to haunt me when I was in high school. The habit became an addiction. To all appearances I was a happy young woman. I was a good student, had lots of friends, and felt loved. I am the kind of person who needs to be perfect in every area of life. I know now that this perfectionism made me feel self-sufficient. Precisely because of my poverty and woundedness I was too proud to fall at Jesus’ feet. 
“I am waiting for you in the confessional” I once heard Him say while I was praying.
“No, Lord” I replied in my pride, “I will deal with it on my own.”   
But I was unable to deal with my impurity on my own. The Lord kept whittling away at my pride until, finally, I repeated the words of the Prodigal Son. “I will arise and go to my father, and I will say to him, ‘Father, I have sinned…
I asked Jesus to show me a priest who would guide me. (I had previously met with rejection and lack of understanding in the confessional.) The Lord took pity on me and led me to a monk, who, on hearing me, said: “You have been through hell. We will have to pray a lot.” Thus the Lord began the process of healing me of self-abuse. He also began to heal my childhood memories. I started to pray the rosary, taking advantage of every free moment (e.g. while traveling on the bus). I read the Bible, received Jesus frequently in Holy Communion, and went for spiritual direction.
I have now been struggling for purity for three years. At times I stray from Jesus and forget to pray, and each time impurity comes to haunt me again. But my relapses are less and less frequent, and I believe that one day the Lord will heal me of my addiction altogether. Trusting in Jesus has helped me to see that my sexuality is His gift. He did not give it to me for the satisfaction of my selfish pleasures. Heeding God’s call, I pray for all those wrestling with similar problems. Let us remember what Scripture tells us: “Our help is in the name of the Lord, who created Heaven and Earth” (Ps 124:8); “With him there is plenteous redemption. And he will redeem [us] from all [our] iniquities (Ps 130:7).


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